Lessons learned the first 50 years

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I hit a milestone. I turned 50 years old. I am thankful that I don't feel 50.   I am thankful for things God has taught me throughout those 50 years. .  I have learned that God loves mercy and when I feel a sense that justice needs to happen over mercy, all I need to do is remember that I am thankful for when God gives me mercy instead of a just punishment.   (Micah 6:8 8 He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.) ( Luke 6: 36  Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful. ) I have learned that hurt people end up hurting people.   When I am able to see that I didn't hurt them but I am bearing the results of that persons hurt inflicted by other people, it helps me forgive whatever hurt they pushed onto me and move on.  (Romans 12 : 18  If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. )  I have learned that anyone who thinks they have God

Silence

Silence, sorry about mine. It has been a crazy year.  No wonder moving is considered as stressful as a death in the family.  I still am trying to figure out my grove.  Life is full of new and the same challenges.  It is just part of living in a broken world.  

I just read a great historical fiction book, one that makes you think about God's supposed silence during hard trials.   The book is called Silence by a Japanese author named Shusaku Endo.  My son is in 11th grade but taking college classes through Toccoa Falls College ( a Christian College in Ga). http://www.tfc.edu/about-tfc/what-we-believe/     This is one of the books he had to write about.   This historical fiction is not God's word, but the fictionalized character is based upon what our Catholic brothers in Christ endured to know Christ, and for this reason, it is worth reading.  He wrote this riveting novel, centered about an inexperienced Portuguese priest named Rodrigues, whose faith is stretched and torn through his experiences  while ministering to the people of Japan. In the 1500's, the Japanese leaders became fearful of what Christianity might do to their power,  so they brutely attempt to stamp out Christianity. They march Christian families (including children) into the sea. They cut Christians and threw them into  pits  and let them slowly bleed to death. There was a chance to escape the martyrdom.  If the believer would step on an image of the face of Christ,  the person might be spared.  Rodrigues ministers to the Japanese peasants, gazes upon their martyrdom, and is later thrown into jail for being a Christian. Throughout this time of his own suffering and the anguish of others, he examines God’s heart as Rodrigues observes the suffering of people around him and wonders why God remains silent through all of this suffering.   How many times do we feel God is silent.  It's like Pricilla Shirer says, "Emotions have no Intellect.." That why in Proverbs we are told to trust the Lord with all of our hearts and not our own understanding.  Yet, like us, God’s people  in this book declared that God “remained silent. "  Rodrigues felt that God ignored the suffering Rodrigues and the other believers around him endured for His namesake. Therefore, the word silence not only reflects the fact that he though God was silent, but it also represents his internal struggle with his own pride, his own fears, and with God’s plan. This is so like many of us.   Rodrigues pridefully declares that “Kichijiro is not a Christian,” despite only God knowing a man’s heart, missing his own prideful arrogance.  Later, Rodrigues “silently” looked into (Kichijiro’s } face, calling him a “whipped dog” with “furtive eyes,” and in his pride and suspicion, Rodrigues “kept staring at him in silence.”  Rodrigues displays his arrogance when he “felt like shouting” to the peasants that their vision of Heaven wasn’t true,  even through he himself didn't know if it was true or not,for he had not been to heaven either, displaying his lack of humility, a lack that God will fill up.
As Rodrigues gazes upon the increased suffering of God’s people, he starts to resent God, for he laments, “Why has our Lord imposed this torture and this persecution on poor Japanese peasants?.  Before answering own question, he alleges something even more sickening to him than the actual suffering, “The silence of God.”.  I have to say that the hard times in life are so much harder when you feel God is silent.  The author describes the scene where the sea “washed the dead bodies of Mokichi and Ichizo…and like the sea God was silent. His silence continued.”   Peering upon the anguish of God’s people around him, and believing he observes the silence of God, for Rodrigues didn’t detect His answer and the suffering continued, Rodrigues assumes God is wrong for being silent.  Therefore, God’s assumed mute voice caused Rodrigues to grapple with his own faith, even to the point where he was questioned God’s existence. However, as the story goes on, Rodrigues begins to change and understand the silence, and consequently, the meaning of the word changes. In the beginning, silence is the thing that weakens and breaks down Rodrigues’s faith, but by the end of the novel, it is the thing that repairs his faith, and makes it even more resilient than before. Rodrigues vouches that God’s silence is worse than martyrdom and agonizing, and cries, “Lord. Why are you silent? Why are you always silent….?”  God’s supposed silence is maintained throughout Silence.  Yet, God uses these things to test Rodrigues’s faith and convictions, while purifying his character.  Rodrigues’s pride blinds him, for Rodrigues believes he is humble and right when we desires to repair Ferreira’s dishonor by offering himself as an atonement for his mentor’s horrible apostasy.  Rodrigues’s view of Christ was of Christ full of glory, strength, honor, and majesty, but as the story progresses, Rodrigues views Christ as “standing silent”   Rodrigues wonders if Jesus had “felt the silence of God,” and described God’s silence as “unrelenting,” hinting that God is wrong in His actions.  
Rodrigues seems to maintain that martyrdom is a magnificent accomplishment, filled with pride in himself, not peace in the Lord.  Yet, once many of his fellow Christians were killed, and having been placed into a tiny cell where he could hear the suffering of the other Christians as they were being tortured, God’s silence is broken.   Rodrigues’s eyes are open and he inspects Kichijiro’s faith as genuine, and his repentance for being humanly weak as true, and Rodrigues avows that we all are enable to master ourselves and be fully what God wants in this life. Twice, Endo speaks of Christ’s suffering beside the believers, for Christ seemed to assure Rodrigues that “when you suffer, {he} suffers with {them}” and He is “close to {them,} not far off, silent. The wording is repeated soon after the time when Rodrigues steps on the image of Christ.  Rodrigues knew if he apostatized, he would become an outcast, rejected by the church, but yet, Christ was the suffering servant, and his apostasy would end the suffering of others, so Rodrigues trampled on a fumie. Consequently, by committing apostasy, Rodrigues stepped into the rejection the act of stepping on the fumie would bring, therefore, he could identify with Christ’s suffering so that others could be freed from suffering, much like Christ did for us. After he has been rejected by his beloved church, he fumes that he “resented {God’s} silence.”  Yet, God mercifully breaks His supposed silence by telling him, “I was not silent. I suffered beside you .”  This is Jesus as seen in Phillipains 2. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

Who, being in very nature[a] God,    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;rather, he made himself nothing    by taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.And being found in appearance as a man,    he humbled himself    by becoming obedient to death        even death on a cross!

Christ- the suffering servant. 
 Rodrigues understood that God was not quiet, for He was with Rodrigues the entire time.  He now recognizes that God wasn’t silent without a specific reason, for the silence was necessary, for now Rodrigues can truly identify with Jesus in a new way, accurate servanthood and humility. Rodrigues became an outcast just like Jesus was an outcast.  When others questioned whether Rodrigues truly loved God, he just listened to the “words of the magistrate in silence,” just like God was silent. Rodrigues’s pride is dissolved and he notes that “it is not man who judges. God knows our weakness more than anyone,” for Rodrigues was truly transformed for the good and glory of Christ .  In the end, Rodrigues’s faith becomes more resilient than it ever was before, and provides him with Heavenly peace in his earthly rejection, for Rodrigues knows that in suffering, God is ever present, enabling to have a supernatural joy in the midst of great difficulties. Subsequently, though Rodrigues’ felt alone, he was never really without help, for Christ was always by his side experiencing the same suffering he was facing. Furthermore,  “we don’t have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses” nor one who can’t understand our pains, for He has first faced them all, one of the main teaching points that Endo wanted us to discover, a point that will help all of us persevere when we think God is silent (Hebrews 4:15).  As God allows hardships in the lives of believers, including Job’s, we often question God’s goodness, justice, or existence, so much so that God included it in the Bible.  Job suffered and questioned God and God replied, “Would you discredit my justice?  Would you condemn me to justify yourself?” (Job 40:8). When we don’t understand what He is doing, we might default to one of these sinful actions. When Rodrigues identifies with Christ’s suffering and humility, he finds a new closeness to God.   Before we are glorified, we will not trust one hundred percent of the time and there will be times we struggle with God.  Yet, Rodrigues perseveres in his faith and trials, a great example for us all, as he finally put others above himself.  I am thankful that Endo wrote this book..... as encouragement to us all. 
 

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